IMPATIENT MOTHER TO BE....

Well, as you all well know by now, I am not a patient person. This adoption process is testing my patience. What I started out thinking would only be a year or less wait has turned into a two year wait. Everything I read tells me the waiting is the hardest. It is the unknown that is hard for me... everything about my "baby to be" is unknown. There is no ultrasound - no crystal ball to look into the future to see what might be. We are jumping without a parachute! but with our eyes wide open. I think Steve and I have taken it all well and that this process has brought us closer together - even if it is just to worry about how much longer. Some days we are excited talking about it - other days depressed because we don't know anything. - and then other days mad because we should have him/her by now. What is taking so long? and of course those days we are running around all over God's creation trying to get signatures notarized, court certified and apostilled! Many of these feeling all at once can sometimes get us down. Today is one of those days. One of those days my mind races... asking a million questions... about what is happening in Russia. (actually the world - these days it's a scary place with Japan issues and wars all over the place).. with our agency... but mostly with our "baby to be". All we can do is hope and pray that he/she is getting the love and care that he/she deserves. I just wish I knew something more. Something to help me get through the next few months until I get the information we have been waiting 2 years for - well maybe our whole lives for. 20 years of marriage for. GOD - if you are listening - please answer our prayers soon. Signed - the impatient mother to be... The time is now. The time is now for me to be. who I'm suppose to be The one who cares for you The one who needs me too The one I need for me to be who I'm suppose to be. The time is now. You are what I have longed forever to have waited forever to be hoped forever would last prayed forever would be loved forever with me the impatient mother to be.